Thursday 5/29/25

Wow, it sure has been a bit hasn't it?

I've been busy with life stuff. Helping out with getting some Mutual Aid projects off the ground in my city. I've been trying to find a group that have the same ideals as me. I've been looking for a long time, if I'm being honest. I just end up doing a lot of the leftish projects myself. I've been pretty embarassed about how I grew up and how I am in real life because I can be a bit rednecky and rural-y and unpolished and a bit of a Prepper (thanks anxiety and a healthy dose of not trusting people who wear uniforms). So I tend to keep my projects close to the vest. I feel like there are a small handful of people who are waking up to everything that has been going on for as long as I've been alive. If only because it's now directly affecting them or someone they love. Which is great! I'm glad there's more people coming to my little anarchish party! Pull up a seat! Pass around the cake! Lemme tell you tales of beans in mylar bags, how I learned how to make my own epipen, or lemme spin you tales of backpacking above treeline with only a physical topo map, my stepdad's shitty compass, and an old ass bolt action rifle.

It's good to have more people in the fold, I just hope they all stick around and open their hearts a little more. I am - at my core - an optomisitc person (as much as I don't want to be, trust me.) and I try to see the good in everyone. I am really hopeful that we can make our little pockets of the world a better place to live if we all got with the fuckin program a little. but I digress

I'm really just popping in here to update my name and the Very Neat Links info page. I found more information online and I wanted to keep it all someplace in case I ever need to reference them again for my own dark purposes. My wife's BFF asked for links, so I sent her mine, and she put it in a zine she's going to distribute at a Tanns centered music festival in D.C. this weekend. So I thought to quickly jump in here to update some stuff, to a general cover my ass for legal reasons disclaimer, and take any super identifitable info on here down, since I have no idea where that zine might accidnetally end up. Plus, I don't often care to be KNOWN (if you've read my other entries, you'll know why).

I'm hoping to find more time to update this site and really tweak it into something cool. I still need to move over all my essays from the various other sites I've published on, but that's going to take a multi-week process and tbh I kinda just wanna sit in the sun and read some books and play in the woods more than updating this little website with all my essays and zines and shit. Maybe I should pay someone to do it for me? hm.

Anywho, that's the update. Click on the Very Neat Links at the top of this page to get to the good shit the girlies crave.

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Saturday 1/2/25

Still learning how to tweak the html style of this thing. I'm glad none of you can see the html files cause they're a MESS!

Really, what I'm trying to figure out is how to make seperate floating boxes in the body of an html file. Kinda what you see when you have a blog-style website, where every entry is it's own seperate box instead of a long, long, LONG box that just keeps getting longer and bigger (kinda how it looks like now).

I tried playing around with new zonelets themes (which have the basic html template I want to use), but the startup guide makes you download their starter pack, then REMOVE/DELETE ALL YOUR HARD WORK then upload their templates and themes. Thankfully, I saved my old CSS and HTML stuff in case this went sideways, and y'all, I'm glad I saved it! Cause doing that brick'd my entire website. I was PISSED.

So, I removed all those zonelets files and re-uploaded all of my old stuff, so now my website is back to it's shitty normal self.

If you have any idea how to make multiple, blog post style boxes in html, or know the code to do so, let a gal know. Cause a simple Reddit and GoDuckGo search isn't bringing up quite the answers I am looking for. If you know me in real life, Signal me, if not, I have a Proton Mail (Anarres11) but I don't check it too often, plus, that will most likely self distruct since I am wary of giving out info to the raw ass internet like that.

All this to say, I'm working on it.

In other news, the world is on fire, I'm trying to keep away and hibernate but doomscrolling is getting to me. I also went suprisingly viral on...of all places...Substack, which garnered me about 520 new subscribers. I have no idea why that corner of the internet took off like that. I did not like all of the attention. I still don't. Mostly blue-waved boomers are commenting and sharing it (It's a post about how I was voted into the Library Trustee in my small town and the main takeaway was to take small steps to get involved in your community) with the takeaway being "GO GIRL GET IN GOVERNMENT!" and I'm like, banging my head going "Look, the point is direct action though positive means, not getting voted into a fucking two party bulllshit system or-worse- setting up yet another nonprofit that's basically a grift to get your cash in order to do a shitty job at lobbying for 'ChAnGe' at the state level which, frankly, isnt' gonna happen." Christ, almighty.

Sorry, lost myself in my own tanget for a second

Anyway, yeah, shit stucks and I feel like nobody really wants to try and do anything meaningful about it, so I'm definitely sinking into a deep winter depression.

The knives are singing to me from the kitchen, it's at a level 6 out of 10.

What will make it better is to go out and find community and talk to like-minded people, but the trick of the mind is to think that nobody likes you or your company, so why bother reaching out? Plus, everyone I have talked to is all doom and gloom but doesn't want to find ways to find active and joyful resistance, or even smart tangable ways to feel safer (I love you, but a bug-out bag with granola bars and a flashlight and some fire starter kits you buy form Amazon are not gonna really help when shit goes down. If anything, the cops are gonna steal that bag before pitching you into the back of a cruiser), but I also do get that everyone is Having a Bad Time and are FLOUNDERING so I keep my mouth shut and try to be supportive. I mean, even talking about literally anything else except all the bad shit would be helpful, like a normal fucking conversation. Tell me about the most recent book you've read. Oh, you knit? What are you working on right now? Hell, I started going to play pinball with my teenager on Sunday afternoons and I've been meeting some nice strangers that way, and I'm having some fun bonding time with my kid. Like. Tell me about that!!

Not to mention that illness are at a peak in my state right now, and everyone around us have been out sick with "various mysterious illnesses" (Flu, of course, but honestly it sounds like all 5 of my coworkers may have caught Flu and COVID together.) Thankfully, all of us mask and are up to date on all our vaccines, so no illnesses hit the house YET but I'm waiting on it. Like, I love my teen but I doubt they have decent masking habits when hanging out with their friends.

Ok this is getting super duper long, so I'll leave it at that. Have a good week, stay safe, wear a mask, wherever you are. <3

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Sunday 12/1/25

I haven't used HTML or CSS in a very, VERY long time

It took me six hours on Friday night to even make the index page! Admittedly two of those hours were me trying to relearn how to get the banner to sit right at the top of my screen, and even still, it looks kinda wonky on a mobile device. *sigh* I just can't win it all.

My wife was impressed that I remembered my hex code color from back during my MySpace days (it's the background color of all these pages). It was one of my favorite colors, so of course i remembered it! I used that color for EVERYTHING. As long as it took to build just one page, I realized how much I missed taking time to actually BUILD something instead of slinging thoughts into a box owned by someone else only to be stylized and tossed into the faces of everyone I know and don't know, all in an attempt to keep you on their app so they can sell you things you don't need. Does it take a little more work? Sure does, but this is MINE and I BUILT IT and I can put ANYTHING I WANT up here and people don't have to interract with it if they don't want to. It's pretty freeing!

I don't feel like I need to doomscroll or have a faceless algo shove my stuff into people's eyeballs and force them to interract with me. It's like the Content Machine equivilent of slapping two Barbies together.

Like maybe I can just put words or whatever out there and folks can just read it. I went viral a few times and I did not like it! I don't need to know your opinions on my shit, you know? I don't want to hear every thought about how I am right or wrong, or like, have discourse or dialouge with you with everything I put up. Cool if you like it, cool if you don't, but I honestly just wanna be left alone... LET ME BE A HERMIT OKAY?

Anyway, enough grunting

Today's adventure is going to be adding a second page to the website. I am worried that I won't remember how to do it. This will be a spot to put my thoughts, etc. Y'know, like what blogging used to be like back when the internet was cool.

My Overall Plan (so far)

Here's some quick ideas for different pages I want for this site:

• Blog (or log)
• Newsletters (moved over from Substack, because I'm predicting that those guys are gonna start using AI or go to the fash soon).
• Photolog
• Events
• Books I'm reading (or reviews of books I read)
• Zine Library (of zines I either made or found)
• Some Cool Links to articles or whatever
• IDK maybe a spot for knitting or leftish shit or something?

I'm still working on what I wanna do and not do here. I'm also trying to figure out how to make multiple boxes on the side, and how to make my Bio box shorter. Also, how to make the little icon on a website tab into something else, like an emoji or something. If you know how to do any of that, or can point me to a few webites that have CSS/HTML codes for them, let me know. I'm building off of a CSS template I found online, but my HTML skills are severely lacking.

I am still trying to figure out how people can contact me, but if you know me in media res, then you already know how to reach me directly, so do that. Everyone else can - like - comment or something in the Neocities thing or whatever I guess. Maybe I'll put a comment box or toss my protonmail up here but I also don't really wanna open myself up to dialouge with strangers or "internet friends" anymore. Still thinking about it...anyway.

I hope you have a relaxing day, wherever you are.